Talk it out

If you’re like me, even though you don’t want it to, people’s opinions affect you.  I think I take it to another extreme sometimes and end up beating myself up for it for hours and days.

I’ve been feeling like I haven’t been doing my best lately, probably owing to the fact that BI is a lot more fun to do than HR timesheet approvals, MS Project, and meetings from dawn till dusk.  There are times when you have to do what you have to do in order to keep the lights on, but I’ve been feeling progressively worse because I feel like I’m not in the right job, or even headspace.

I’ve been wanting to talk to my boss about a project I’m working on, but I’ve been letting it snowball because I was nervous about her reaction.  I feel like it’s affecting my team, and that I can’t have.  So I went and talked to her about some of the roadblocks I was up against and we planned our way around it.  She’s been really busy lately because of the amount of work we have coming up, so we haven’t been able to really connect as much as I realize I needed.

Don’t hold onto things so that a small thing becomes a monster.  I was thankfully not letting my attitude in the front door of my house, but it was difficult.  If you have an issue, talk to the person about it, but approach it from an even level.  Don’t come on to strong, or more importantly, too weak.  Get them to see the issue and appeal to them for help.

Made it easier to be at work today and I have accomplished so much already it’s already affecting the team in a positive way.